THE WALL THAT STANDS IN FRONT OF ME
SHOWS SO MANY THINGS
IT SHOWS AN ENORMOUS EAGLE
WITH POWERFUL BUT LOVELY WINGS

THE WALL I SIT AND STARE AT
SHOWS ME MOVING SHADOWS
IT SHOWS A MARKET FULL OF PEOPLE
AND A MAN READY FOR THE GALLOWS

IN THIS WALL OF ACTION HERE
I SEE OTHER SCENES TOO
IT SHOWS ME WESTERN MOVIES
AND A LAKE THAT’S PURE AND BLUE

AS I SIT SILENT AND THOUGHTFUL
I SEE PEOPLE THAT LOOK REAL
I HEAR THEIR ANGRY VOICES
AS THEY CURSE ME AT THEIR MEAL

I TRY TO PULL MY EYES AWAY
BUT THE WALL WONT LET ME GO
I CANT STOP THE ANGRY VOICES
AND MY TEARS BEGIN TO FLOW

THE NOISE IN MY HEAD IS DEAFENING
BUT THE ROOM IS EMPTY AND SILENT
I SEE AND HEAR THESE PEOPLE
THEY ARE ANGRY AND APPEAR VIOLENT

I SHUT MY EYES TO SHUT THEM OUT
I CAN STILL HEAR THEM IN MY HEAD
I MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO SEE THEM
BUT THEY SHOUT AT ME EVEN IN BED

I DON’T MAKE OUT THE SENTENCES
BUT I KNOW THEY’RE CRITISISING ME
I WISH THEY WOULD JUST GO AWAY
SO THAT I CAN FINALLY BE FREE

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

MANY DAYS I’VE SAT ON THIS SILL
AND WATCHED THE WORLD GO BY
AND MANY NIGHTS IN MY DISPAIR
WATCHED THE STARS AND HAD A CRY

PEOPLE PASSING IN THEIR CARS
THEY NEVER BREAK A SMILE
PEOPLE FROWN AS THEY WALK DOWN THE STREET
AS IF LIFE’S NOT WORTH THEIR WHILE

1000 REASONS FOR WORRY
1000 FOR ANXIETY TOO
MONEYS SPENT BEFORE IT’S MADE
NO WONDER THEY’RE ALL SO BLUE

LIFE SEEMS LIKE SUCH A STRUGGLE
WHY FROWN AND MAKE IT WORSE
STOP STRESSING AND TRY TO SMILE
OR YOU GET A FREE RIDE IN A HEARSE

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

YOU KNOW SOMETIMES WHEN YOU FEEL ALONE
LIKE A KING IN HIS CASTLE WITH NO QUEEN ON HIS THRONE

YOU KNOW SOMETIMES WHEN YOU LOOK TO THE SKY
AND YOU SHOUT IN YOUR HEAD, WHY ME WHY

YOU KNOW ON THOSE DAYS WHEN YOU’RE DEEP IN YOUR MIND
JUST LOOK FOR ME IM NOT HARD TO FIND

ITS ON ALL THESE DAYS IM CLOSEST TO YOU
AND ON THESE DAYS MY LOVE IS MOST TRUE

ITS AT ALL THOSE TIMES IM DEEP IN YOUR HEART
AND WHISPERING SOFTLY ILL NEVER DEPART.

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

IS HE, WILL HE, DOES HE
HOW WILL I EVER KNOW
I SIT WITH HIM ALL DAY, ALL WEEK
I ACHE WHEN I HAVE TO GO

ALWAYS THERE SITS THE MAN
THAT I FELL FOR MONTHS AGO
AT THIS VERY POINT IN TIME I WANT TO KNOW DOES HE KNOW

DOES HE KNOW I LOVE HIM
DOES HE SEE I CARE
WHEN HE WAKES IN THE MORNING
DOES HE KNOW IM THERE

ALONE IN THE LOUNGE IN THE DARK
SITS A CONFUSED AND LONELY SOUL
WITH ONLY LOVE TO GUIDE HER
TO HELP HIM REACH HIS GOAL

SLEEPLESS, TIRED AND WORRIED
SHE SIPS SLOWLY FROM A CUP
SHE WONDERS IF SHE’S GOOD ENOUGH
TO SHOW HIM THE ROAD GOING UP

SHE DREAMS OF HIM ONLY
NOTHING BUT LOVE AND CARE
SHE DOUBTS HER STRENGTH AND ABILITY
TO WALK WITH HIM ALL THE WAY THERE

SO HERE IN THE DARKNESS
THE MUSIC PLAYING LOUD
HER TABLETS TAKING EFFECT
SHE TRIES TO FIND HIS CLOUD

INSOMNIA GRIPS HER ROUGHLY
AND FINALLY FALLS ASLEEP SITTING UP
HIM AWAY FROM HER AGAIN
AND NEARBY HER EMPTY CUP

SHE DREAMS OF FLYING HIGH
ABOVE MOUNTAINS AND SNOW TIPPED PEAKS
IT’S HER ONLY HAPPINESS
FOR HE HASN’T SMILED FOR WEEKS

IN THE MORNING SHE WILL WAKE
TO FACE AN UNPREDICTABLE DAY
AND WITH EVERY PIECE OF LOVE
SHE WILL AGAIN TRY TO SHOW HIM THE WAY

SHE WONDERS WILL SHE MAKE IT THROUGH
AT THE END WILL SHE FALL APART
WILL HE BE ABLE THEN TO COLLECT
ALL THE BROKEN PIECES OF HER HEART

SHE SEEMS NEVER TO LOVE HIM MORE
EVEN THROUGH HER TEARS AND HIS PAIN
EVEN IF HE DOES MAKE HER WORRY
AND AT THE END SHE FEELS A BIT INSANE

SHE WILL FIGHT FOR HIM HARD
SHE WILL FIGHT BESIDE HIM ALL THE WAY
AFTER ALL SHE KNOWS HE IS HER MAN
AND HE LOVES HER ANYWAY

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

London was abuzz with its early morn commuters
Business men reading papers or using their computers.

Terrorists had been there earlier that day
To spread their murderous evil in their typical evil way.

The first blast went off then the next, the second and the third
Finally a fourth one and chaos could be heard.

They hoped to break our spirit but we are far too strong
And now the blooming idiots realise that they were wrong.

Our spirits are not easily broken and we stand tall as one
We’ve proved they’re shooting blanks in their pretty feeble gun.

Look at London, look at us all
You will not harm this country and you will not make us fall.

So here’s our message loud and clear, we know you’ll try again
But mark our words, heed them well you CANNOT cause us pain.

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

Once there was a smile where now there’s a frown
I used to be up, now Im just down
Once there was a glimmer of life in my eyes
Now there are tears that express silent cries.

This cancer eats away at my body and soul
I try to look foreward and try to feel whole
I smile and laugh but no one can see
Its just a face I wear to keep trying to be me

I have a great friend, David is his name
He has taken me through so much of this game
I call him my son, I’d be a proud mom
In a way you could say, My son is the bomb

If I were to leave here, I have one thing to say
David you’re the best in every way
I treasure our friendship, I’m glad that we met
I hope we have years more and its not my time yet

Remember my son to reach for the sky
The wise ones in life are the ones that ask why
I hope you find happiness in all that you do
You’re great, a true friend and I love you

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

You sit alone in your room all day
With nothing but your thoughts to say
You sit and watch the ticking clock
You listen to music but still hear the doors lock

I sit alone in my room all night
I think of you and know you’re not alright
There’s music playing round and round
The volume is high but I hear no sound

Although you’re alone I’m always with you
When you’re feeling down and feeling blue
Although I’m alone I feel your breath in my ear
We are so far apart but so very near

A room can be full but no one is there
Like life is cruel and still can be fair
It can be raining outside but the sun will still shine
Velvet can be rough but still feel fine

The truth is we’re never that far apart
We know for sure we are as far as our heart
So close your eyes when you’re feeling down
And feel my love as I kiss away your frown

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

OH WELCOME TO LENTON
IT’S A GANGSTERS PARADISE
DOWN THE ROAD IS SNEINTON
BUT THAT ALSO WON’T SURFICE

GUNSHOTS HEARD EVERY NIGHT
SIRENS 24 HOURS A DAY
IT’S GETTING WORSE, IT’S JUST NOT RIGHT
BECAUSE THE GANGSTERS ARE OUT TO PLAY

BUYING DRUGS IS EASY
JUST GO DOWN THE ROAD AND ASK
IT MAKES ME FEEL SO QUEASY
STAYING SANE IS NO EASY TASK

WE DON’T GO OUT AFTER FIVE
WE SLEEP WITH OUR HOUSES LOCKED
MOVING IS FOR WHAT I STRIVE
IT’S NOT EASY, THE PATH IS BLOCKED

I’VE GROWN TO HATE THIS PLACE
AND ALL IT’S EVIL WAYS
THE SADNESS GROWS ON MY FACE
AND FEAR LENGTHENS MY DAYS

SO WELCOME TO LENTON
PLEASE DON’T STOP YOUR CAR
IT’S NOT EVEN SAFE IN SNEINTON
DRIVE FAST AND VERY FAR

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

SOMEWHERE IN THE DARKNESS
THE SILENT KILLER CREPT
IT WAS COLD AND CALCULATING
AND ALL MY BODY WEPT

I HAD NO IDEA
THAT DAY THEY BROKE THE NEWS
THAT I WAS BEING SLOWLY KILLED
AND CANCER SLOWLY BREWS

IT’S POISON EATING AWAY AT ME
IT’S EVIL CUTTING DEEP
I WILL LIVE I TELL MYSELF
AS IT EATS ME WHILE I SLEEP

ALL THE MEDICATION DRANK
AND SPEECHES TO THE LOO
AS A BOMB IT WOULD BE ANTI-TANK
AND I LIVE BEING CONSTANTLY BLUE

WILL I DIE OR WON’T I
CAN I SOMEHOW BEAT THIS STORM
I TRY TO BE POSITIVE BUT I SIGH
THE SUNS OUT BUT I’M NOT WARM

SO HERE TO JUST NOT KNOWING
AND THOSE I MAY LEAVE BEHIND
MY DETERMINATION NOT GLOWING
I REALISE GOOD FRIENDS ARE HARD TO FIND

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

YOU LEFT AGAIN TOO LATE TONIGHT
BUT AGAIN YOU DIDNT GO WITHOUT HAVING A FIGHT
YOU LEFT AGAIN FAR FROM TOO SOON
AND AGAIN YOU'LL SAY SORRY TOMORROW AT NOON

I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR SERPENT TONGUE
THERE HASNT BEEN A DAY YOU HAVEN'T RUNG
I KEEP REPEATING MYSELF TO YOU
I DONT LOVE YOU, BUT YOU HAVENT A CLUE

I KEEP ON SAYING I DONT WANT YOU HERE
AND THIS WILL END IN THE WORST, I FEAR
I CANT STAND TO TOUCH YOU, OR KISS YOU GOODBYE
ITS NOT YOU ITS ME AND I JUST DONT KNOW WHY

SOMETHING INSIDE SAYS YOURE NOT FOR ME
SO GO HOME MAN AND LET ME BE
SOMETHING INSIDE SAYS TO GET OUT NOW
BUT WITH YOUR OBSESSIVE BEHAVIOUR I DONT KNOW HOW.

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

THERE SHE SAT PLAYING
IN THE MORNING SUN
I CALLED HER NAME
BUT SHE WAS HAVING TOO MUCH FUN

SHE IS A LITTLE CAT
PURRNA IS HER NAME
AND EVERYTHING IN LIFE TO HER
IS JUST ONE BIG GAME

SHE CHEERS ME UP WHEN I AM DOWN
SHE MAKES ME LAUGH WHEN I CRY
SHE WAKES ME UP AT 4 O' CLOCK
TO FEED HER, OOOOH SHE'S SLY

SHE SITS WITH ME WHILE I BATHE
SHE SITS WITH ME WATCHING TV
SHE PLAYS WITH THE CURSER ON MY SCREEN
BUT SHE NEVER LETS ME BE

HER PRESENCE IS REFRESHING
HER JOY FOR LIFE INSPIRES
SHE HELPS ME DRINK MY COFFEE
LOVE AND WARMTH HER ONLY DESIRES

SHE IS AN AMAZING CHILD
THE ONLY CHILD IVE GOT
ALTHOUGH SHE IS A BIT WILD
SHE'S MY PERFECT LITTLE PURRNA-TOT.

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

A SEA OF DREAMS
IN AN OCEAN OF LIFE
NOTHING IS AS IT SEEMS
THERE’S CHAOS AND STRIFE

AMONG US WALKS TALL
A MAN THAT’S SO TRUE
NO ONE KNOWS HIM
IS IT ME? IS IT YOU?

THE DAY THE WORLD FALLS
HE WILL BLESS AND LEAD
HE WILL HEAR ALL CALLS
HE WILL FILL EVERY NEED

AND HE WILL GUIDE US FAR
OUT OF HARMS WAY
AWAY FROM THE SCAR
WE CALL LIFE ON THIS DAY

HE IS HERE NOW
THE END MUST BE NEAR
REMEMBER TO BOW
WHEN HE REMOVES YOUR FEAR

AS SOME CHOOSE THE TRUTH
AND SOME CHOOSE TO LIE
HE CAN GIVE YOU NEW YOUTH
OR CONDEM YOU TO DIE

FOR ME, I CAN HEAR HIM
CALLING MY NAME
ON MY LIPS, ON MY CHEEK
TO TAKE ME OUT OF THE GAME

TILL HE SHOWS ME MERCY
TILL HE ENDS ALL MY PAIN
IT’S A CONTROVERSY
WITH NOTHING TO GAIN

NO MEANING TO LIFE
NO REASON TO LIVE
CHAOS AND STRIFE
NO MORE CAN I GIVE

SO HERE I WAIT
FOR HIM TO GET ME
AT DEATHS GATE
FINALLY I’LL BE FREE

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

HI ALL, THIS IS A POEM I WROTE ABOUT A GUY WHO WAS AN ALCHOHOLIC AND LIVING ROUGH, MY MATE AND I GAVE HIM A BATH AND FOOD, THIS POEM IS ON WHAT WE GOT IN RETURN.


Stewart was a famous piddler,
He piddled on the floor,
And when his mates kicked him out,
He piddled through the door,
He piddled on the carpet,
He piddled on the chairs,
Stewart piddled on everything,
And piddled everywhere.

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

AGAIN HE WOKE ME UP TODAY
WITH THE SONGS OF THE BIRDS
AND DAWN HEADING MY WAY

SHE LOOKED AT ME THROUGH MY BEDROOM WINDOW
I SMILED AND SHE GLOWED
LIKE THERE WAS NO TOMORROW

HE WHISPERED GENTLY TO AWAKE FROM MY SLEEP
HE SAID DO NOT FEAR
YOUR SOUL SAFE I WILL KEEP

AND DAWN, GLEAMED BRIGHTER THAN EVER BEFORE
AS I PEELED BACK THE COVERS
AND DANCED THROUGH MY DOOR

HE WARNED ME WHEN I CROSSED THE ROAD
HE LED ME THROUGH THE DAY
AND LIGHTENED MY LOAD

HE TOLD ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN
I LOVE YOU MY CHILD
I WILL TAKE YOUR PAIN

THAT NIGHT I CLOSED MY EYES WITH HIM
HOLDING ME SAFELY
THE ROOM WAS DIM

AS I DREAMED I HEARD HIM ONE MORE TIME
I LOVE YOU MY CHILD
AND WITH ME YOU WILL CLIMB

WITH HIM AND DAWN IN MY DEEPEST DREAMS
I KNEW I WOULD AWAKE TOMORROW
AND MAKE IT BY ALL MEANS

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

YOU HELD ME CLOSE AGAIN LAST NIGHT
ALL MY PAIN MELTED AWAY
YOU KISSED ME AND OH IT FELT SO RIGHT
YOU ENVELOPED ME TILL THE BREAK OF DAY

YOUR TOUCH MADE THE STARS TWINKLE IN MY SKY
THE SCENT OF YOUR SKIN SWEET AS HONEY
YOU DANCED THROUGH MY HEART AND I FELT I COULD FLY
WE WANT FOR NOTHING, NOT EVEN MONEY

YOU FINISH MY SENTENCES, KNOW WHAT I WILL SAY
YOU KNOW WHAT IM THINKING, WHEN I'M DOWN
I THINK OF YOU EVERY MINUTE OF THE DAY
AND JUST THAT THOUGHT REMOVES MY HEARTS FROWN

MY LOVE FOR YOU IS SO COMPLETE
MY YEARNING WHEN YOU'RE GONE IS SO STRONG
I WILL NEVER ACCEPT LOSS NOR DEFEAT
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE, IS THAT WRONG?

AND IF YOU LEAVE ME I WILL LOVE YOU STILL
I WILL LOVE YOU TILL THE DAY THAT I DIE
WE ARE SOUL MATES, I AM YOUR HAPPY PILL
BUT FOR YEARS TO COME, FOR YOU I SHALL CRY

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

i spoke to you again on the phone
i wish you were with me here in my home
i love to hear your silky voice
but i must wait i have no choice

i know i will see you in an hours time
then my heart will fly and feel fine
i know i will kiss your tender lips
and your magic hands will rest on my hips

i long to gaze deep into your eyes
i love you my beating heart cries
i love the touch i have grown to know
the way you bowl me over in a breaths blow

oh i cant wait to see you again
my blood rushes around like a leaf in the rain
i love to hear those little three words
they take me high where i fly with the birds

i love you my darling i love you, you see
without you i am just not me
you complete my entire being
this is love baby thats what you're seeing

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

DRINK BEER, DRINK BEER
YOU’LL BE DRUNK FOR SURE
DRINK BEER ALL THE YEAR
AN YOU WILL BECOME VERY POOR

DRUNKING BEER, NOW SEE HERE
I AM NOT DRINK AT ALL
I CAN WALK DO NOT FEAR
I MIGHT WALK INTO THE WALL

TAKE ME DRUNK IM HOME AGAIN
I AM SEEING DOUBLE
FROM THIS DRUNK I WILL REFRAIN
AND TRY STAY OUT OF TROUBLE

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

A thread of hope shall free us from doubt.
With no will to cope through strife we
Drift like air. Mute a proud ear.
Walk high and save the gut fear of doom.
Lies have no niche in our hearts.


By Rasputin and Silverfox

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

I smile into my coffee cup
I grin down at my burning smoke
I love the way they make me feel
It’s what I need to wake up

I gaze outside up to the sky
I appreciate the wonderful sun
The bustling cars pass down the road
But I feel like I can fly

Today is the blessing I have received
Today is my gift of life
Nothing can hurt me anymore
Today gives me the happiness I need

So come on all you misery guts
Get up and out and enjoy
The world is a playground just for you
And I won’t accept if’s and but’s

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

The sirens sound in Lenton
The police are again on the go
This town is getting worse if fear
Threat is what we know

The drugies and the gangsters
Run amock and terrorise everyone
You’re not safe locked up in your home
And most own their own illegal gun

Another card was posted
Through my letterbox by the cops
A building in your area
Has been robbed, please check your locks.

An old lady of eighty was mugged tonight
For just a pound and fifty pence
They killed the old dear
The fear grows too immense

Can you believe a man was shot
Walking home at five
He was old and passing by
He is now no longer alive

This place I live has gotten bad
The danger is at my door
Have to move my residence
Or I will be a victim for sure.

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

It’s a slippery slide
When we have to hide
Behind a plastic mask
It’s a slippery slide
When we have to confide
In someone I wouldn’t assign a task
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Such a slippery slide
When we have no guide
To get us through the day
Yes that slippery slide
When we just can’t abide
By the things that people say
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
This is a slippery slide
Where we’re taken for a ride
And people are just so cold
Darn this slippery slide
When we just can’t decide
Or am I just getting old!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Well this slippery slide
On the fence I’m astride
I can no longer choose where to go
Oh slippery slide
Kicked me up the backside
Perhaps for next time I’ll know!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
My dear slippery slide
You tease me with suicide
And I cannot find a way out
Slippery slide
You’ve cut a hole in my side
And left me with nothing but doubt
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

It’s four in the morning and all is well,
The birds outside chatter like they have something to tell.
It’s four in the morning and all is righ,t
I sneak around the flat just to be polite.
It’s four in the morning and I’m having a smoke,
With the whole night awake, it should be vodka and coke!
It’s four in the morning and I am dead tired,
At this time of day I’m already so wired!
It’s four in the morning and all is well,
When will I sleep? no one can tell.

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

I can’t remember the exact date
We were to check on the boss’s house
We went and opened the windows
The dogs were quiet as a mouse

We watched al little telly
The boss had said stay a while
The whole farm was quiet and peaceful
There wasn’t a sound for a mile

The dogs got up and mosied off
We thought they just went for a walk
Then through the door five men burst
And threatened us not to talk

We were hit over the head with metal bars
Hit kicked and punched aswell
It took everything not to pass out
And to survive this real hell

They locked him in the bathroom
Demanded money and guns from me
Then they took me out to a field
Where I closed my eyes not to see

They took that night my life force
Then kneeled me on the ground
They pulled the trigger twice
It went click but no bang did sound

They rushed me back to the house
Where he sat against the wall
Finally they left us locked
In the toilet stall

I waited till I couldn’t hear them
Then I smashed the door and grabbed him
I ran dragging a once proud man
The night was eerie and dim

That was the night that they came
I lost my living force
Now I just live for today
And let life run it’s course.

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

HOW WAS I MEANT TO KNOW
THE WAY THAT PEOPLE ARE
HOW WAS I MEANT TO SEE
WHAT YOU CANT SEE FROM AFAR

HOW WAS I MEANT TO REALISE
THE THOUGHTS IN PEOPLES MINDS
ALL THEY WANTED WAS TO CORRUPT
AND I WAS JUST WEARING BLINDS

I NEVER GOT SHOWN, I NEVER GOT TAUGHT
SOMEHOW I WAS JUST MEANT TO SMELL
I NEVER KNEW ANYTHING
AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT WOULD SELL

I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO BEHAVE
I DIDNT KNOW WHO TO TALK TO
I DIDNT KNOW ANYTHING
I JUST DIDNT THROUGH AND THROUGH

NOW IM HERE IN A MESSY MESS
IVE MADE TOO MANY WRONGS
I JUST PRAY THAT I CAN GET OUT
BEFORE MY LIFE IS JUST SONGS.

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

This mountain of life that i climb
Is an obstacle i endure
But is it really worth the time?
If so, what is it's lure?

Is it worth the time to ponder
On stress and worry each day?
I just can't help but wonder
Is that going through life the right way?

Is it worth the time to speak
Idle, empty words?
And go through every week
with our noses in the air with the birds?

Ask yourself, is it worth the time
To live such plastic lives
To walk the straight and narrow line
Society demands and drives

Has this life been truly worth the time
This you must ask yourself
If not, you're like a poor red wine
To enjoy life, you have genuine wealth.

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

IT DOESN'T MATTER THAT I HAVE HAD A ROUGH LIFE
IT DOESN'T MATTER THAT I'VE BEEN A WIFE
IT DOESN'T MATTER THAT I AM SURROUNDED BY STRESS
OR EVEN THAT I LOOK GOOD IN EVERYTHING BUT A DRESS

IT DOESN'T MATTER IM LIVING IN HELL
IT DOESN'T MATTER THAT I'M NOT VERY WELL
I DON'T HAVE TO GO THROUGH LIFE ON MY OWN
IM LUCKY TO HAVE THE FRIENDS I'VE BEEN THROWN

IT MATTERS THAT DESPITE ALL THIS WRONG IM GOING THROUGH
I STILL BOUNCE BACK EVEN THOUGH I FEEL BLUE
IT MATTERS TO THOSE THAT REALLY CARE ABOUT ME
THAT I HAVE THEIR FRIENDSHIP FOR ALL TO SEE

THE TINY THINGS MY FRIENDS SAY AND DO
LIFT UP MY SPIRITS AND THEIR HEARTS RING TRUE
SO THANKS TO THEM ALL, AND KNOW ONE THING
I APPRECIATE EACH ONE, THAT'S A PRECIOUS THING

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

MY BED GREETED ME LAST NIGHT
WITH IT’S SOFT EMBRACE
WHEN I LAY DOWN IT FELT ALRIGHT
BUT TO SLEEP WASN’T THE CASE

I LAY TOSSING AND TURNING
TILL THE DAWNS EARLY KISS
MY EYES WERE RED AND BURNING
A GIANT, STRONG COFFEE SORTED THIS

IT WAS ALL TOPSY TURVY
WHEN MICK CAME ROUND FOR A DRINK
I FELT LIKE A SAILOR WITH SCURVY
BUT THEN WE BEGAN TO THINK…

SHOULDN’T WE WRITE A COLLAB
FOR THE STARLITE CAFÉ
SO WE DID, WITH THE GIFT OF THE GAB
BUT IT SEEMS A BIT ‘PASE’

SO HERE IS MICK TO FINISH
THIS STUPID LITTLE THING
DON’T LET YOUR SANITY DIMINISH
OR WE’LL STAND UP AND ATTEMPT TO SING

FOUR AND TWENTY VIRGINS
WOULD BE MY FAVORITE SONG
BUT VIVS STOOD UP AND SHOUTED AT ME
AND TOLD ME IT WOULD TAkE TOO LONG

SO WEVE GOT TOGETER
MAINLY FOR A LAUGH
AND IF YOU GET INSOMNIA
LOOK FOR THE SHEPHERD
WITH HIS CROOK AND STAFF

IF YOU FIND HIM IN YOUR ROOM
YOU’VE BEEN COUNTING SHEEP
BUT PERSONALLY TEN CANS OF LAGER
USUALLY GET ME TO SLEEP

(collaboration by Rasputin and Ivanhoe)

By rasputin

SITTING ON A BAR STOOL
WONDERING WHAT I WANT
LIKE SOME STUPID DAMNED FOOL
LIFE ISN'T STRAIGHT IT'S SLANT

SITTING HERE I WONDER WHY
I EVEN THINK OF LIFE
GETTING UP JUST TO GET BY
ALL THIS ILLNESS AND THIS STRIFE

SITTING HERE AND WONDERING WHY
I EVEN BOTHERED TODAY
PERHAPS IT'S ANOTHER DEFEATIST SIGH
COS I KNOW DOOM IS HEADING MY WAY

SO HERE I SIT AT THE BAR
AND WONDER WHY IM STILL HERE
THIS IS THE WORST, OH YES, BY FAR!
AND IT GETS WORSE EVERY YEAR

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

Someone i've met has suffered loss
Someone i barely know
But she keeps her faith and has such strength
And offers her poems to show

She writes into the starlite cafe
Sharing with us her pain
She has shared with us her innermost strength
Inspired us and kept us sane

She has a gift, that gift is faith
She spreads it through her poems
She makes us feel that there is hope
Even though she doesn't hear our moans.

So here is a poem to Annie
I wish you all the best
You keep your chin up girl
Because you're better than the best

I would like to say i'm sorry
For the loss you have just had
But We're all here to help you
And turn your heart to happy not sad.

(keep your chin up Annie.)

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

We broke up and agreed, that we would stay friends
We knew our love was forbidden
We took each other through life’s worst bends
And my love for you stays well hidden

The stolen moments with you that I take
I treasure each second that’s there
Even though you don’t know you’re my cake
You are my chocolate éclair

You think that it’s my friendship
I’m offering to you
But its more it is my companionship
And the love I feel is true

Those little stolen moments with you
Are the ones that get me by
When we split my love still grew
I feel elated and that is just why.

I treasure each second spent in your space
I love and hang on each word
You are my Romeo and this is our pace
My love for you flies like a bird

So each stolen moment that I can steal
Is a moment I steal with you
This forbidden love is very real
The stolen moments are very true.

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

AS I STEP THROUGH THE THORN FIELD OF LIFE
I MAY FEEL AFRAID WHERE I WALK
THE SOULS OF MY FEET SCARRED AN BLOODIED
SOME THORNS ARE SO DEEP I CAN’T TALK

I PEER DOWN AT MY BLOODIED FEET
SOME OF THE BLOOD HAS DRIED
I REMEMBER WHEN I GOT EACH THORN
I REMEMBER HOW I WRETCHED AS I CRIED

EACH CAREFUL STEP I WALKED IN THE PAST
MAY NOT ALWAYS HAVE BEEN THE RIGHT ONE
BUT IT WAS WITH EACH STRIDE THAT I LAUNCHED
THAT I WOULD FOLLOW MY DREAMS AND HAVE FUN

SO MANY OF US LIVE IN THE THORN FIELD
AND NEVER FIND A CLEAR SPACE TO TREAD
IT IS FOR THOSE THAT I LIVE MY LIFE EACH DAY
AND FOR THEM THAT THIS POEM IS SAID

I WISH YOU ALL THE VERY BEST
MY WISH IS FOR YOU TO FIND A CLEARING
TAKE YOUR STEP FINALLY
BECAUSE YOUR FORTUNE IS SLOWLY NEARING

HAVE FAITH IN LIFE AND LOOK AHEAD
FIGHT FOR YOUR BELIEFS AND DREAMS
YOU ARE ALL RICHER THAN THE RICHEST MEN
NOT EVERYTHING IN LIFE IS AS IT SEEMS

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

ISN’T IT FUNNY HOW WE ALL FOLLOW
SOCIETY’S MILLITANT RULE
ISN’T IT STRANGE THAT WE DON’T FIND IT HOLLOW
WE DON’T TREAT PEOPLE WELL, BUT CRUEL

WE FOLLOW THE DO’S AND DON’TS OF THE WORLD
DRUMMED INTO US AS KIDS
WE KEEP A COMPOSURE WHEN THE WORLD IS HURLED
AND OUT OF CONTROL OUR LIFE SKIDS

WE FOLLOW THIS RULE LIKE LAMBS TO THE SLAUGHTER
SIMPLY EXISTING THROUGH EACH DAY
WE SAY “THAT’S NOT LADYLIKE” TO OUR DAUGHTER
“A YOUNG LADY BEHAVES IN THIS WAY”

WHO WAS THE DICTATOR WHO WROTE THE BOOK
WHAT OR WHAT WE SHOULD NOT DO
THE QUESTION IS NOT, HOW WE SHOULD LOOK
BUT TO LIVE LIFE BEING REAL AND TRUE

SO WHEN YOURE FACED WITH A DECISION TO MAKE
WHETHER YOU FOLLOW YOUR HEART OR YOUR MIND
MAKE SURE YOU FEEL IT’S ALL NOT A FAKE
AND LIFE GETS EASIER YOULL FIND

FIGHT FOR WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN IS RIGHT
THE PATH MOST TRAVELLED IS NOT ALWAYS CORRECT
YOU’LL SLEEP EASIER EVERY SINGLE NIGHT
AND THE LOOSE ENDS OF DOUBT WILL CONNECT

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

Broken ties to the life I knew
Keeps me from going insane
The turmoil within my mind is true
And from the memories I must abstain

The whisper of the wind, and the call of the wild
Rips out my heart each day
That life compared to now was mild
And was filled with excitement each day

But now I live each day in hell
With noise and misery all the time
I keep on getting more and more unwell
This life is a never ending climb

I long to return to the bush I knew
To walk where wild animals roam free
Where the sun shines hot and skies are blue
That’s where my heart should be.

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

A FUNNY LITTLE THOUGHT
POPPED UNANNOUNCED INTO MY HEAD
AT THREE O' CLOCK THIS MORNING
ON MY WAY TO BED

WHAT IS IT JUST THAT MAKES US TICK
WHAT IS THE REAL MEANING OF LIFE
I COULDN'T FALL ASLEEP AFTER THAT
MY MIND WAS FULL OF STRIFE

SO THEN I GOT TO THINKING
WHAT MAKES US TICK IS LOVE
SHARING LAUGHTER WHILE WE'RE DRINKING
AND THE SUN SHINE ON US FROM UP ABOVE

LOVE IS THE REAL MEANING OF LIFE
TAKE IT AS IT COMES
BECAUSE THOSE THAT AREN'T CUT BY LOVES KNIFE
ARE THE LUCKY ONES

IF YOU FIND IT
HOLD IT DEAR TO YOUR HEART
BECAUSE YOU CAN'T SAY I LOVE YOU
TO LOVED ONES AFTER THEY DEPART.

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

HIS EYES ARE DEEP AND BROWN
HIS FACE MAKES ME WANT TO SMILE
HIS GENTLE LIPS REMOVE MY FROWN
WHEN HE HOLDS ME FOR A WHILE

HE TOUCHES MY SKIN LIKE SOFT AIR
HE'S AS GENTLE AS CAN BE
IT ALMOST SEEMS UNFAIR
TO WANT TO KEEP HIM ALL FOR ME

HIS SOFTLY SPOKEN WORDS
REACH DEEP INTO MY HEART
AND I FLY OFF WITH THE BIRDS
AND WHISH WE'D NEVER PART.

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)

I SAW HIM AGAIN TODAY
A SLIVER OF THE MAN I LOVE
I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY
AS HE KISSED ME FROM ABOVE

THE PASSION IN HIS TOUCH
BURNED LIKE AN ANGRY FIRE
I REMEMBERED HIS LOVE AS SUCH
THAT I LONGED HE BE MY SONS SIRE

HIS EYES PENETRATED MINE
HE TOUCHED MY VERY CORE
HIS FINGERS BRUSHED AGAINST MY SPINE
TILL PLEASURE SEEPED FROM EVERY PORE

I CRIED DEEP TEARS OF PASSION
I MERGED WITH HIS VERY SOLE
HE HELD ME IN THAT TREASURED FASHION
MY LOVE BURNED LIKE A RED HOT COAL

I WISHED HE WOULD STAY THAT WAY
THAT HE WOULDN'T CHANGE AGAIN
THAT IN HIS ARMS I COULD STAY
THROUGH LIFE'S SUNSHINE AND RAIN.

By rasputin

© 2005 rasputin (All rights reserved)